i will

"You will find one"

"Yes, I will, InsyaAllah" I said.

Give the best, out of the best. Try not to go astray by the right path.

He will always guide you, my dear.

Believe it. He is and He will.

Giving you strength to go on, Life to live with.

Family to stay by your side & Friends to cheer you up.

Part of you are just being devilish at times, It's just another evil speaking to you.

Your heart, you shouldn't follow as it is. Let the holy verses lead you to where you should go.

Shine. Sun will never shine if you darkened your life.

Find your sunshine. Find yourself not in the darkness of the evil.

You will. You will find. Insya'Allah.


Ya Allah, thanks for the prosperous life & longevity.
If I could ask for more, I only wish for a better life in future, not just for me.
but for each and everyone of us.

From the bottom of my undisguised soul,
F.

trapped.

hold me in your arms.

i never did.

i said, i can't stand it. you keep on going.

why?

because i still love you.

why don't you get that.


between love and conspiracy,
crumpled.



apple crumble is tasty.

deep monologue

the whole world is never going to understand what's going on.

between blinks, your heart seems to cripple,

a balloon on the tip of a needle.

juggling between lust & love,

i know i have failed. neither to love. nor lusty minds.

i have failed myself.

"he's never going to be yours"


yours truly,
a broken heart without a rainfall.

luckily my lacrimal gland is not working tonight.

what if

tomorrow never come for me.

now im afraid to sleep.

reckon the bulging eyes.

i cant help it anymore.

goodnight
babe on the run. too much too read.

dad,
i love you.

thanks, friend.

have you ever felt the sky is falling down and nowhere to run?

when everything was so perfect & suddenly it all seems falling apart.

justify your heart & let it all out.

grab a friend and let them out.

make sure he listens. and digest. and let him to respond.

yes it helps. yes it was.

thanks, friend.


alhamdulillah.

keep your eyes closed.
im here to sooth, myself.

my my my. why is it so hard.

weaker by conversation

i feel very weak. tiptop, i never felt this bad.
after every conversation i burst into tears.

i love you, daddy.

why the whole world just don't get it.
i love you i love you i love you.

he is in town

i said "can i see you, daddy? i mean kitak sorang. on your own, please."

"no you can't do that my dear, show some respect."

sik dapat. its too hard for me. sakit tauk sik.

other's happiness is not in your hand.

reality, face it and deal with it.

urgh.

change

yes it is about time to move forward.
as promised, leave it all behind.