There are things in life that you cared so much and they are hard to let go. And yet, there are things in life that cannot be cured.

Leave the world as it is, and you are still what you are no matter what. Enjoy your time while the time for your life is still ticking. I know it would never be enough, but yeah why burden yourself with thoughts of the future when you know fate is there waiting for you?

It may sounded a bit cliche, but I do believe in fate and I just can't let it go. It breaks and it swallowed me. Strength is all i ever needed.

Mr. O

Mr. O,

It is weird that he did not get the text. Either way, I'm not sure whether it was a good decision or it just screwed up my life a little bit deeper. I was suprised to hear from him this morning but in a way I feel better than before.

All these while I wasn't talking to him, I did feel devastated, deprived and honestly I do miss his presence. A simple Hi can change everything, a good conversation can make me my head go round.

He shows his affection towards my beauty. He enjoys every part of it, and of course I do enjoy every second.

I know I shouldn't. And I know it is wrong but I can't help. Your affection is irresistable. Your touch is incomparable. I always miss the way you kissed me, and I always longed to taste it again.

The truth is awful. The truth will be never fair enough to treat me. I'm a fool of my own desire. I'm a fool.

be someone you can possibly be.

someone you love.




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I'm Fragile.

Achtung!

Im fragile.

These few days have been ridiculously awful for me. Been eating carbs like hell, there's no more tomorrow to enjoy this food.

Honestly, I'm broken and I dont know how to fix myself. Im torn apart and I dont know what to do.

I smiled and surprisingly found out myself crying the next second. Why life has not been good to me. I dont know what Im doing. I dont know what I am waiting for.

I can crash and burn at any time. I can fall and crushed in a minute or to be specific, it takes only a second for me turning the smiling face into a waterfall of tears.

I dont understand why this is happening to me. I thought I was strong, I thought I'll be okay.

I said I am Okay and I will get through. but now, it is not getting anywhere, not even close.

Im broken, inside out. Im feelling deprived and Im stuck in my own thoughts.

Im terrified. Im miserable and I dont believe it is me and why Im doing this to myself.

Lets pray that this will be over soon because I cannot cope with it.