Not less, Not much but Always.

If I were there, I want to tell you straight to your face.
How much you have hurt me with your negligence.
The truth is written. I'm not yours and I will never be.

But I refused what is written. I still care for you.
Not less, Not much. but Always.
I want your time, I seek your attention.
I adore your affection, I longed for your touch.
I said, I will wait.

You said you cared for me. But you never show it.
You said you loved me. But you never feel it.
It hurts. It truly does.
Your words scratching those pains inside.
Deep. Deeper than any thorns could have hurt me.

I failed to fill your senses. I failed to be someone you needed.

A word.

I can feel my blood rushing to my face. I can feel the heat.
I cant hold it, I cannot hold it back. I cried.

You have no idea how hurt I was when you said the word.
A word that I did not expect you to say.

I know I was mad, and so do you. But the word is too harsh. It is disrespectful.
I'm sorry. I am sorry. I cannot go on like this.

I fancy You.

You,

Of so many different things I see in life, you have caught my eyes.
You are my attention. You show me what a guy can do.
To love the right way, and care how they should.

It does not hurt to know you have someone else,
Because I know you are one of the greatest.
With your age, you captured my sights,
It is almost sound imposibble when it comes to me.

I don't love you, I just fancy you.
It would be great if I can love someone like you.
and to be loved the way you loved your significant other.

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