dearie,
i can't sleep, maybe i refused to.
i can't shut my eyes and let the feelings go away.
it is too strong.
stronger than the smell of java coffee beans.
stronger than the morphine that hallucinates.
i can't describe what exactly.
but one thing for sure,
i seek your attention.
coldplay's "fix you" describes best,
when you love someone and it goes to waste.
could it be worse ?
NO.
this is the worst. and i don't know when will it stops.
when it will be cured.
how long does it takes to leave you behind?
how am i going to go through the days without you, knowing what is going on with me.
without me knowing what is wrong with you, what you've been up for?
i can't . it is fearful to give it a thought.
it is painful to see the future,
it is, and it surely doesn't do any good.
i know it is impossible, it is out of my mind
that we are going to be together.
i'm a fool, i know.
but i can't stop here.
i can't.
i just want to love you, as long as it feels possible to love you.
love,
the girl who sees more in you than others do.