i know it from the start

i know it from the start that this smile won't last long but i refuse to walk away.
and it is all because of you.

you put hopes and make me trust you like others,
but you were nothing like anyone else before.

you are different and i know at some point you are the best.

knowing you for long quite some time, almost half of my life i have you in my mind and those 10 years keeping you in mind was for sure is negligible; as small as it is meaningless for both of us.

but these 10 weeks; my heart pondered upon you. searches for your attention and waiting for your time.

i got what i want. i got to see you. and i am happy with it.
i told you i want to have a pinch of your smell, yes i got it.
i told you i want to kiss your lips, yes i had a nice one on my lips too.

but what i miss most, is when your warm hand touched mine.
i wanted to tell you, but u dont seem to have time for it.

i smiled, but i know from that very moment the smile wont be long.

now i'm missing you badly & i have no idea which way to go because you never seem to be there to go to.

it looks like, i have one choice; to walk away leaving you with your own time.


love is never enough to see what you are missing till you lose it all. xx.