sleepless.

dearie,

i can't sleep, maybe i refused to.
i can't shut my eyes and let the feelings go away.
it is too strong.
stronger than the smell of java coffee beans.
stronger than the morphine that hallucinates.

i can't describe what exactly.
but one thing for sure,
i seek your attention.

coldplay's "fix you" describes best,
when you love someone and it goes to waste.
could it be worse ?

NO.

this is the worst. and i don't know when will it stops.
when it will be cured.
how long does it takes to leave you behind?
how am i going to go through the days without you, knowing what is going on with me.
without me knowing what is wrong with you, what you've been up for?

i can't . it is fearful to give it a thought.
it is painful to see the future,
it is, and it surely doesn't do any good.

i know it is impossible, it is out of my mind
that we are going to be together.
i'm a fool, i know.
but i can't stop here.
i can't.

i just want to love you, as long as it feels possible to love you.


love,

the girl who sees more in you than others do.